7 MAY

Today..7 may..everything happen..almost 8 years ago..this date the date my late older brother en.Sharul Arman bin Arith birthday..n the day he had engagement with his wife.. In the same day is the day my late father passed away and leave their lovely wife and children for the whole life..ayah say good bye around 5pm after my abg man's engagement already finished..n my ayah leave us after he was face with my abg man..all my aunty cuzzie didn't allowed me to watch my ayah bcoz they know..I'm the only daughter who are lately really close with my ayah..I'm just 13 years old..so I just a lil gal that don't know what was happened..?i just heard that..ayah dah tak Ada..that around peeps said to me..so I just..owh ok..no tears but I gave smile..n they want me to back home first b4 they sent jenazah..thn I'm follow my cuzzie.n thn when I'm home I just went to my parents room n I sleep..I just felt that..nothing happened..after I heard noisy at the outside I went to hall n I saw a body with around him peeps recite a Yassin..so I'm asked to my abg man..knp ni?siape tu? Thn abg man hugs me n said..ayah dah tak ada..so I'm just silence n I sit at the kitchen..I borak2 with org2 dapur..they just like shocked wit my action..so after the day..hari pengebumian..I follow..my abg man asked me to follow him..so I'm just follow..at the grave's land..I saw the peeps busy with their duty..semua lahh..n the times they hold my father to bring him into the grave..Yess that times my tears burst out..but I don't have a voice just tears..and in that time I thinking that..ok after this ayah dah tak ada..just me abg2 n mak..boy my younger brother who I never see he cried..can't stop the tears.he the only one from others the most ayah sayang..sgt..really close frm kids until now..everything he wish to get.he will get with ayah..n after that we all live with our lovely mum..pn Salmah bachik..addition..in that day are the mothers day..my mum lost her lovely husband on her happiness to have 1st in law..n the day all the children celebrate their mum..so far alhamdulillah we never lack of everything..from top to toe..we complete with mum...everything we wishes.she will try hardest to get it..n never say that..sory mak penat..never..when anak2 blik..she will cook..even she just come back from work..I respect her as my role model..I wishes I can afford to be her's mirror..n today..7 may 2012.. The first year I celebrate my late abg man's bufday without him..as always only he his my friends..pot pet everything..now a day..he not wit me..but I wishes ayah n abg man look us from a far.. May god blessed you..!im just imperfect daughter want to say that I lost all of you from bottom of my heart.. I SMILE but peeps didn't know how much it hurt when you are not beside..!